It's been a while since I've blogged, I know. I'd like to say thank you to those who e-mailed me to ask if I was doing okay, as by this time last year I was already posting up holiday gift ideas and doing Halloween themed recipes. So, some people were worried about me and I really do appreciate that. It's nice to know that there are people out there who care.
Honestly folks, it's been so hectic and crazy around here that I haven't had much chance to think, let alone blog.
It's been a hard school year so far for both of my kids. My son ended up with a lot of changes forced on him this year, from going to an afternoon schedule at school to losing an aide that he'd had his entire preschool time and then just little changes here and there...for him I think it was a matter of too much change in his environment, but not ENOUGH change to make the changes exciting for him (like he does awesome in summer school because it's a new set of teachers and students). And my daughter's teacher this year is not anywhere near her teacher from last year, who was awesome. She's had to deal with a near militaristic classroom environment with lots of drilling, lots of homework and lots of stress. My sensitive sweetheart of a daughter did not deal with this well and when I realized that I had one child who would screech as soon as we'd hit the school parking lot because he didn't want to go to school and another who had constant head aches and stomach aches from stress...I'd had enough. So we're switching schools. I hope I'm making the right choice in that, but it's all I can think of at the moment as I feel like we have nothing to lose by switching schools at this point. A hard pill to swallow, for sure, when I worked so hard to get a boundary exemption and then having to withdraw it after the first quarter. But, such is life.
And then there were other changes. Like losing our independent speech therapy because Alyeska Physical Therapy ended up with a new speech therapist who has her spine fused together and can't handle any child with physical demands. Our old speech therapist, who we loved and was making progress with Alvah, was getting transferred to children with feeding issues and that was all she was going to do. So, after a month of appointments in which we were not told this scenario at all, we had a call where we were dropped from speech therapy without any notice at all. It infuriated me, to tell the truth...heck I still am furious, because as far as I am concerned we were misled the entire time we were there. So, that led me to calling every speech therapist I could find, once again, and miraculously finding an opening with Health Quest in Eagle River. We start there next week. Wish us luck.
Then there is the impending follow up with the neurologist come November which is a week of solid testing in which my son, my husband and I will be burned out by the end of that week for sure. And then the next week we start at our new school.
To top it all off, I got to a point where the head butting and biting in frustration that is going on with my son when he realizes that he's not getting his way, which I honestly stems from him THINKING that he's not being understood in his limited communication abilities, got to a point where I realized that I need help in figuring out how to teach him certain things until I can get him to talk. So, I made an appointment to see a Behavioral Health Professional (BHP). All of that is coming down the pike, along with a Halloween party I'm throwing where friends of my daughter and a bunch of family will be there and I'm on, "completely overwhelmed and wanting to breathe into a paper bag due to panic" type of mode.
I often wonder why God forces some things on some people. I am a person who dreads and despises change. I like to have a set schedule and go about doing things in my own organized little world. So long as I can do that, I'm content for the most part with life in general. And it seems like all the time anymore that God sees fit to having me living in a tornado. This is not good for my anxiety level *slight laugh*.
So, I just wanted to warn those who were looking forward to some posts on cool things for Halloween and such...I'm HOPING to share some cool things for fall here in the next couple of weeks, but it depends how many moments I can manage to skim from my schedule to do it. As for Christmas...ugh...you know I used to love the holiday. But, the longer time goes on and more I realize that people's perception of what Christmas is all about gets sort of screwball. I'm burned out on making gifts and buying gifts starting in January of every year to give those gifts to a lot of people who are ungrateful because you didn't spend enough money on them. THAT really hits home for me how terribly out of whack things have gotten with a holiday that I was always taught was about getting together with loved ones and sharing good food and good times together. And the fact that the stores are putting out Christmas decorations with Halloween decorations now and it seems they are pretty much skipping Thanksgiving, a holiday I always considered to be important to center us in our lives to find ourselves thankful for what we have, and "disgusted" doesn't even begin to describe my mood.
Top holiday disillusionment with last year where my son was sick with the flu all through Christmas and we ended up at the ER on Christmas Day due to a high fever (on top of some super drama with extended family that seriously we could have made a reality TV show out of...it was that bizarre) and man...I'm sort of Grinching it up this year, big time. But, I'll see what I can pull together to share with you all for your holiday festivities. I'm sort of hoping to put together a series on cheap Christmas decor you can put together yourself as part of the "Design on a Well-Stretched Penny" series, but we'll see how life goes :).
So, yeah, to sum up for those who hate listening to me rant, we're all still alive here and getting by. And yes, I'm still blogging things. And I'll try to get those "things" up here soon :). Thanks for your understanding!